U are ur social circle

you can judge a person by the size of one's social circle

it's not that i don't have frens, it's just that i chose not to be around people
cos i know given a choice they'd choose to hang out with other people over me.
why? cos i'm boring. that simple.
cos all i do is talk crap and talk about my unrealistic goals and dreams and letting out steam.
having frens who do not understand and support your fantasies and dreams is just a torture.
they're not terrible people, in fact by the standards of others they are the best possible frens any body could ever ask for.

but not for me. 

honestly i really don't need suggestions nor ur advise i just need ur ears.
i dont need u to tell me my problems n solutions.
i just need u to listen to my grumbles n talk crap.
the more crap i let out the more i wont do crap.
i dunno how many of u know that i do think ahead. 
i have yet to meet one that understands this

Not having a healthy social circle,
i became more self centered and uninterested on the affairs of others.
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why cant people see that i m having difficulty trying to cope.
being around people who do not value your advise,
who think that ur suggestion is unfeasible cos its lack of thought

i only have ONE friend and she's in perth.
she has her own problems
but she's strong, she too is tired.
we're both tired.
when can we rest?