"I wanna tell you something, at a certain point in your life, probably when too much of it has gone by. You will open your eyes, and see yourself for who you are. Especially for everything that made you so different from all the awful normals. And you will say to yourself but I am this person, and in that statement, there will be a kind of love. " - Phoebe In Wonderland

January 2, 2012

HAPPY . TWENTY . 12

Resolutions.... ok i know its so cliche setting one
but i guess everyone has a to do list to in life.
short term, long term.... whichever... they're still goals.
whether or not its gonna be fulfilled, sometimes its beyond our control.

we still need to list down our goals for the coming year right??
so here we go...

  1. to get my drivers liscense (auto)
  2. go korea in dec
  3. dive in may/june
  4. get attached
  5. maintain 57kg by june
i think five is a good target to start with....
lets see how it goes....

good luck!!



October 3, 2011

i have nothing....


when life has no meaning.
no purpose, no intent, no ambition,
no desire, no hope, no direction,
no vision, no wish, no aspiration,
no friends, no family, no love one,
and not forgetting no money...
Life is like a blank piece of paper.

the paper is a void.

When a person becomes this blank piece of paper.
is there still light at the end of the tunnel?
it all depends on the individual.

possibilities are abundant yet limited.
time is infinite yet antagonistic.
fear immobilizes yet strengthens.
curiosity motivates yet deadly.

i have nothing,
and will have nothing,
if i do nothing.

September 19, 2011

self fulfilling prophecy

I only have one person to blame for denying the life i could have had.
myself. 

my life journey is almost like a test of all sorts.
testing theories, hypothesis, and life philosophies.
not knowing the significances of these test.
results sometimes or rather most of the time screwing up my life
so bad i cause my own depression.
haha

The second decade of my life can be summarized with the following hypothesis....
  1. could man's love replace God's love? .....No
  2. can girls also lust with out love?  .....No
  3. life in poverty have more life experiences...  ....Maybe
  4. being poor will understand the importance of saving...  saving...
i'm writing this cos i know it'll slip away unnoticed... boo.

August 20, 2011

between a rock and a hard place

Sigh.... its bad enough i'm such a fickle person.
Suddenly there's been plenty of issues to be decided upon.

when it comes to making decisions...
there are many elements aiding the choices
and knowledge is one of those elements.
to be able to recognize and accept the results is the deciding factor

from deciding what to eat, to determining my future
I have to settle on one out of the multiple options
if I'm lucky I get to pick two or more.
but what are the odds
especially when its about my life,
and possibly my future.
i wished i had some answers or a glimpse of tomorrow

How do I make a decision when I've the
"you won't know if you don't try" kinda attitude
time is the other element.
is it on my side... or is it not?

when I'm stuck at a ' Y ' junction, I'd
weigh the possibilities
examine the consequences
source for solutions
evaluate my personalities
and concur.
i hope.

There are times when i didn't need to think.
there are times when I've decided way before its time.
at times i take 3 seconds, 3 minutes, or even 3 hours.
and other times i took 3 days, 3 months,
and if I've the luxury of time 3 years.

But now its happiness vs money
the life long battle since our fore fathers
and it has and will remain this way.

happier person or a wealthier person?
better job prospect Vs studies
the industry i love Vs the industry that i can excel in

is the course right for me?
which course should i pursue?
will i pursue the industry i studied?
should i go back to previous vocation?
or should i start a new?
am i suited for this new industry?
i know i'm versatile but is the job flexible?

so many qns. so little ans.

August 10, 2011

The Power Of Honesty

the power of honesty
is forgiveness....
when one has the courage
to be honest and share the truth...
that the other party should
or will also have the courage
to forgive...
try it....
its liberating....
i just did...

August 1, 2011

awesome-ness

Had the most exhausting week ever....
entering another long n treacherous week...
tons n tons of things to do...
work never ending... while brain malfunctions
and l'il macky giveing minor problems ...
making me slightly paranoid...
maybe need to send him to hospital aka sapora...
which i'm sooooo reluctant to...

my personal todo list is buliding up like a sky scraper
lack of slp isn't helping... insomnia pls leave me alone
total hours of slp i have a week doesn't even add up to 30hrs
i need water... i need slp... i need pain killers....
bad neck... bad back... bad shoulders...

OH LORD.... pls give me strength to sustain this coming week....
Thanks....

sorry for all the lamentings...
Just wanna Thank a couple of ppl...

Terrence... thanks for letting me help u... its been awhile that i've writen a script... sorry for being late for rehearsals.... struggling with work n this is really quite painful... i think i'm more stress n physically tired as compared to the previous production earlier tis year...

Artists n crew of JUICEZ production and events company... thanks for letting me part of u guys... knowing how much older i m yet not despising me... i hope u guys manage to learn sth from me as much as i have learnt from u....

Simon thanks for helping me n my bro with the painting.... u work very fast!! woohoo... Thank u so much.... my hand, arm n neck super sore now....

lastly
Bern.... for tolerating my rubbish in office.... i know wat to do...

ok off to bed...
nites world....

July 25, 2011

the measure of love 愛情的標準

不是誰給的多或少
就是衡量愛情的標準
重要的是
你能夠為對方付出多少
生命給了我們靈魂
可是沒有教我們該怎麼走
所以在情感的路上
兩個人必須風雨同舟
因為愛情是一種遇見
不能等待也沒有準備

林曉柔 <<醉後注定愛上你>>


it is not how much one is able to provide
that measures up to one's expectations.
its how much one is able to sacrifice
that's more important

life gave us soul
but it didnt teach us which path to take
so upon this journey of love
we have to beat the odds together
bcos love is coincidental
you can neither wait nor be prepared for it.

- lin xiao ru "love you"