to the future you...

Written after being inspired by 'The Time Travelers Wife'

i'm waiting but not mindlessly,

i'm patient as it takes forever to to come,
i'm independent dependently...

i'm thinking yet ignoring all signs to do so,
i'm realistic yet i ponder on things that are not,

when will you be here...
here to comfort my sore lonesome heart,
here to rejoice on the silliest thing that excites me,
here to answer my nonsensical questions,

here to laugh at my lame cold jokes,

here to warm me when i'm cold,

here to sit by my angry self in silence,

here to straighten my illicit thoughts,

here to keep me on track when i derail,

here to hold me when i'm weary,

here to let me be me....

when....

when will you be here...

for me to love u back the way you would...

i'm tired....

tired of waiting...

tired of being strong to the whole world,

tired of being afraid in the dark alone,

tired of crying to sleep,

tired of wondering...

tired of giving up

tired of picking the wrong one till i find u.

..... tired... but still waiting.... always will....

patiently yours....