non contributing member

Current status in life
< Family >
My family doesnt need me im a non contributing family member
Im a leech n pest to them...
Im the reason there’s disunity
Im so negative even my family member shun away from me
Ive so selfish n freeloading off them
When was there a time they needed me
Daughter sister aunt cousin niece god daughter FAIL

< Friends >
Im negative if it isn’t obvious enough
Who would wanna be ard me?
I m nv ard when they needed help (u say yes? I dare u to count...  n i bet u cant list evern 10 times i was there for u)
I was not there during the pregnancy the weddings the first months i was nv part of ur lives
N when i was i only poured cold water on ur situation
I was nv the encourager or the cheerleader
i'm not a a contributing member in the friendship
Friend FAIL

< colleague >
I pretend i know what im doing half the time
I dont read enough i dont keep myself updated to things ard me
Im not knowledgeable
I dont have the urge to want to know things
What do with all these info i dont need?
Only to use when i make convo with people n
half the time i read things incorrectly and insist im right
N people get irritated with my lack of knowledge
But when i truly know stuff i get doubted
cos most of the time im wrong hence making me unreliable
So what is the point knowing things?
I cant get along with people
There's something wrong with me seriously
I stir shit, jealous of others,
when hard(menial)work is all i can offer why am i in this line?
i'm not a contributing member in the company
Colleague FAIL

< Lover / Life Partner >
living alone for so many years, lifestyle of being single is much different than one that is being
with someone....
i thought i was prepared to get married...
but meeting the right person i realised i'm not prepared to be someone's wife...
i'm not eloquent, i'm not sociable, i'm not wise and smart, i'm not matured.
i'm broke no savings, not earning the amount i should at my age.
again another non contributing member of a couple.
Lover / Life Partner FAIL