updates - tendering

i havent been posting
but so i post all the pant up frustrations all at one go.
all 4 post were written over different times
some dating back to 2012 november

but they all some to have a common topic
n the last post was a combined of the thoughts since 2013 october till now.

this means its not just one occassion that i have felt this way.
it has been an issue for a long long long time.


tendering...
should I?
should i leave?
theres sooo many things to think abt...
sch... finances.... next job...
i feel like a prisoner...