its never too late to grow up.

it suddenly just donned on me that i'm 32 tis year.
i haven't really thought much about the number, let alone associating myself with it.
i embraced the big 3, a year before thinking it would help reduce the fear of the responsibilities that were to come, and i maintained the precarious attitude.


I use to think that could live my life as i please and need not be concerned of things that does not take my fancy. But only just, i have come to realize i must step up my game to meet the ever maturing mindset of the society and the obligations that tags along with it. Compared  to a decade ago, the teens and young adults of today are ripening so quickly. Accepting and taking on pressures 10 times more than those of the carefree past.

it is slowly becoming more apparent that it IS inevitable that we have to take on certain duties that come with age, whatever marital statues you're at.


You must be thinking, saying this at the age of 32 is really very overdue. Yes i admit i discovered that i have a delayed maturity level, and yes it has affected me in some ways but better late than nv right?
Many people at my age are in long relationships or have settled down or even are mothers, but for me they seem so far fetched. it is only recently there was a strong awareness of my motherly instinct emoting thru me.

A bosses once said "when one improves at work, they will naturally be a better person."

This pass year, i have seen with my own eyes and proved myself wrong. Ive seen how my low self esteem caused me my job and pushed my into depression. I've nv had much confidence with the things i'm good at, let alone the things i've nv tried before.

I nv thought i could do the things i dislike, and do them so well. But when i accepted the challenge, i became determined to upgrade myself and change became a second nature. i was even impressed with my own ability to improve as i was lazy and even sure that i will not be able to kick the laziness in me.

I'm happy with where i am now but i know i can be better. I have to be.

wish me luck. :)