"I wanna tell you something, at a certain point in your life, probably when too much of it has gone by. You will open your eyes, and see yourself for who you are. Especially for everything that made you so different from all the awful normals. And you will say to yourself but I am this person, and in that statement, there will be a kind of love. " - Phoebe In Wonderland

December 31, 2009

summary of 2009...

i'd like to thank Our Lord God almighty for such a Great year.
Thank you for being Jehovah Jireh n providing me n my family faithfully...
Thank you for protecting me for harm n keeping me sane (no its not a typo).
Thank you for guiding me to thru the darkest times.

this fruitful year...
1st quarter - being able to spend time with parents in china....
2nd quarter - spending time with Godma n G.aunties in London, Rome, Paris.
3rd quarter - spending time with my closes buddies in perth.
4th quarter - ending the yr with love peace n joy with frens n family...

even though the world is having a financial crisis.
my life have been fruitful and peaceful
the word to sum up twenty O nine.

"blessed"

i've been utterly blessed this year n i m counting every single one i've received
n bcos i've received... i m going to bring it fwd to others ard me this coming year
I will be a blessing to the people around me. (one of my 2010 resolution)
2010 will also be another fantastic year.
i proclaim it. and it shall be done...

Have a Blessed TWENTY10 everyone....

December 28, 2009

you give me something



You want to stay with me in the morning
You only hold me when I sleep
I was meant to tread the water
Now I've gotten in too deep
For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart

You already waited up for hours
Just to spend a little time alone with me
And I can say I've never bought you flowers
I can't work out what they mean
I never thought that I'd love someone
That was someone else's dream

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might call you from my heart

But it might me a second too late
And the words that I could never say
Gonna come out anyway

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart
Know my heart, know my heart, know my heart

December 27, 2009

passing of a dear friend...

This girl once said this to me...

"friends will come n go....
they may not stay with you thru' out ur life,
but they're here for a reason
learn as much as you can from them"

This girl is no longer with us.
she made a difference in my life.
she played a part of
a teacher, a sister,
and a friend.

she was brave.
determined, disciplined,
gentle, calm and independent.

dearly missed....
1981 - 2009
a toast to 28 wonderful years
to a marvelous friend...


December 26, 2009

FANTAbulous CHRISTmas....

christmas 2009 is one of the best christmas i've had..
friends n family all around me... (i'm not depressed)
feel sooooo loved by everyone...
*takes deep breath* hahhhhhh..........
recently its been a rush of endorphins flowing thru my body
i feel so cool calm collected.
nothing can put me off.
its like a breath of fresh air thru my system.
so liberating...

i literally feel happier...
why? i can't put a finger to it either.
but here's a couple of reasons...
#1 - "nothing ventured nothing gained" i lost my weight i gained my confidence (not arrogance)
#2 - i've finally stopped searching n starting living life.
#3 - decision to step out...

whatever the reason is...
i'm going to bask in this feeling as long as it last...
n will make it last as long as possible...
cos its an extremely great feeling....
i'm happy for myself n i know everyone is happy for me too...

peace out.....




December 20, 2009

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!




its christmas again!!! this year's been smooth n super eventful...
And i wanna Thank God for all the blessings that had came my way...
though recession hit us n everyone's been working hard to make ends meet...
its been a year of rest for me...
some may think i've been enjoying life traveling around the globe
but i'd like to think that its been a year of self fulfillment and restoration..

i've come to the end of self searching...
and am starting to live life....

and i wish all who r still searching...
do no haste, patience is all u need...
n wish u God's speed...

once again...
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ONE & ALL...
and a adventurous NEW YEAR!!!
HAPPY 2010....
the start of a new decade...

November 7, 2009

i love ME....

yes i'm declaring it....
i love the person i am
cos i'm imperfect....
not becos it makes me uniquely me.
but also becos of my imperfection
i can n dare to be who i am
i accept my differences
hence able to accept the differences of others
i love my imperfection
hence i'm trying love the imperfection of others

love is not abt accepting n loving the person for who he/she is/was
but to accept n love the imperfection of that person....

we r not GOD, so all these takes time....



September 3, 2009

I'm just me...

i'm simple, easy to understand, i'm a open book.
a little witty, cheesy-ly humorous.
cheeky n silly, full of nonsense.
very communicative, very open, but slightly liberal.
problem solver, dun like to sit on problem.
adventurous.
sucker for romance, comedy movies.


i'm lazy, procrastinate, paranoid, impatient.
racist n nationalist (indians n PRCs).
slow learner, can't handle stress.
irrational, unmotivated, undetermined.
timid, do not watch horror shows.
rebellious, non conformist.
emotionally weak.


i love people who....
r humorous n witty
has controllable sensitivity n emotions.
has high tolerance level yet not boh chap
multi-lingual people.
r intellectual yet humble n willing to share their knowledge.
r realistic in life in general.


i hate people who....
expect things to be a certain way bcos its better/gd/right.
behave like everyone owes them $1 million
judge me b4 knowing me.
exploit my ignorance.
kia su, kia si and gian peng people
r prejudice to my size.
assumes things
r not observant n sensitive
keeps asking me to change n not accepting me for who i am.
force me to agree on their ideas/values/opinions/comment
see me with a tinted glass



August 24, 2009

GEMINI ROOSTER

I AM A TYPICAL GEMINI ROOSTER...
those in YELLOW are TRUE abt me....
the rest are true but not all the time....

Rooster - General characteristics

Roosters are the most unconventional sign of the Chinese zodiac. Always full of dreams and romance being attractive and colorful in the same time. They intend to be always cheerful and are proud of themselves. They always try to organize things, love precision and punctuality, real perfectionists that hate errors and tend to be efficient as they can. They very good in expressing themselves orally as well as written. You can talk to them in most subjects although it's extremely difficult to convince them in something because they'll defend their point at all costs.

They're the type of person who will not admit that they're wrong and will try to convince you otherwise which they often do because they're always ready for long battles. They are bad diplomats because of their direct approach and sometimes they're not careful enough and they hurt other people because they always say what's on their mind and not think about consequences because they feel they always right.

When it comes to handling money they're really good and they can control well their budget and even managing to be generous and giving in the same time. When they feel someone is in trouble, they often offer their help, even if someone doesn't want it. They also have good sense for timing and they don't waste it for unnecessary things. They're excellent for doing the important tasks and they won't let you down if you convince them that this is really important for you, but don't expect improvisations, cause you need to be very precise and exact when dealing with them.

Ambition is natural to them and they want it all. They are very creative and very often have good career and are successful businessmen. When they put their mind to something, they won't give it up and will try all alternatives to get the things done, but they have trouble realizing that all things need time because they just can't remain still. And when they achieve their goal they always want to add details to show their unique style.

Their nature is very optimistic and fearless, they're the people that don't care what other people think of them but their determination makes other people accept them. They just need a grip and they’re ready to use all of their talents and potentials.

Most compatible with Ox, Serpent and Dragon.


Gemini - General characteristics

The third sign of the zodiac is Gemini. The sign for Gemini is the Twins and it suits the Gemini personality perfectly. Geminis are well known for their dual nature. They seem to be constantly struggling to reconcile the two opposite and distinct parts of their personality. Because of their dual nature, they adapt well to new settings and make friends very easily.

However, Geminis find it hard to have an opinion about a certain topic because they are very good at seeing and understanding both sides of any situation. For example, they may disagree with abortion, yet sympathize with women who have them. This constant changeability causes many Geminis to be quite impulsive and impatient at times.

The Life of the Party
Geminis also love to talk. Because of this, and perhaps in part because of their impulsive behavior, Geminis are usually the life of the party. They are lively and energetic as well as versatile and intellectual. Their minds are always working, which often results in them telling people what they are thinking. Their witty and humor attract people and because Geminis are such fun to be with, they are often surrounded by many loyal friends throughout their lives.

Geminis have a natural curiosity of all that is around them. This can be a positive thing, in that Geminis know a little about everything and are not shy about giving their opinion. Geminis are most unhappy when stuck in what they feel is a rut. It is not uncommon for Geminis to have several careers throughout their lives (as they get bored with one occupation). This restlessness can also cause many Geminis to have several lovers throughout their lives.

The Great Communicator
Because Geminis are such great communicators and their minds crave information, they love to know the latest news and gossip and enjoy being able to share it with others. Because they are such good communicators, they are frequently sought out by those seeking advice. However, because Geminis are so talkative, some may fear they are not able to keep secrets they are told in confidence.

Geminis love any means of communication, be it by the pen, computer, telephone, or face to face. Geminis gravitate to the arts such as acting, music, writing because they are so good at communication. Because of their great skills, Geminis are often able to persuade people to do almost anything.

Weaknesses
Geminis are so sharp and quick, wanting to learn all they can, it can be a weakness. Their superficiality often leads them to skim things rather than exploring them in any depth. Geminis may be the true "Jack of all trades, master of none" because of their short attention spans.

Both male and female Geminis love to be social and charm the opposite sex. A Gemini's gregarious and fun loving nature can often be misinterpreted and they are often seen as flirts and teases. Geminis may be hard to pin down in a relationship as they crave change and freedom to come and go as they please.

Because Geminis are quick to act and talk, they may become frustrated with other signs that are not as quick to act.

Parts of the Body Ruled By Gemini
Hands, arms, shoulders, and lungs - Geminis may be susceptible to strains involving the arms and shoulders and may be prone to respiratory illnesses.




July 10, 2009

i wed u....

most couples say their vows without really meaning it...

if you are able to say the following n mean very bit of it..


then u're ready to get married...
cos don't regret after that...

July 4, 2009

life qoutes....

some qoutes to ponder on.... if it make sense to u... good... if not... too bad...

"love others only if you can love urself fully"
"being mean is easier than being nice"
"friendship doesn't last forever, cos people change"
"ur life is wat u make of it" or "u r wat u eat"
"NO expectation , NO disappointment"
"nv expect anything from anyone, nobody owes you anything" or "erase 'should' in ur life"
"not everyone has the same 'common sense' as u, we have different parents"
"if a problem can be solved with money, its not a problem. if it can't be solved with money its a fact, accept it"
"to find companionship one must 1st be able to embrace solitude"
"in order to forgive n forget, one must feel beyond hatred (numbness)"
"abnormality lies in the eye of the beholder"
"to protect urself from hurt, dun put value in the anyone's comments"
"get married only if u wanna reproduce"
"reproduce only if you can handle the it"
"cohabit 1st if you need to get married"
"if u're easily affected by wat others say, u obviously dun value urself"
"weddings are a waste of time MONEY n energy, for a blink of a moment"
"nv let life expectations stop u from becoming the person u r"
"trust no one except urself"


ok can't think anymore... too early in the day...
good morning people!!

June 24, 2009

check out tis tattoo!!! baby!!



real or not i still love tis pic.
its absolutely unique...

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June 9, 2009

chewing gum marriage

think abt it.
read it over n over.
maybe it'll start make sense to u.

some like it cos its refreshing.
some like it for other motives.
some like it cos they love it.
some like it cos its fun.

but u can't chew the gum forever....

u spit out when the taste is over.
u use it to achieve targets.
chewing it too long cause aches.
u lose interest in it after a while.

this is what marriage is like for some ppl...

good vs evil

its tough being a nice person.
too difficult to maintain the good nature.
conclusion... just be a meanie... cos...
its easier to NOT maintain a evil nature.

April 21, 2009

cabury craze....

Lyrics for Part One - The Surfing Surfer

Wouldn't it be nice if the world was Cadbury?
You could surf inside a chocolate tube
Ride your board across the wave forever
Get wiped out and never get a bruise
And if a shark came up and tried to bite you
You could say 'I'm chocolate - I invite you'
Wouldn't it be nice?

Lyrics for Part Two - Postal madness

Wouldn't it be nice if the world was Cadbury?
Chocolate roads and trees and birds and bees
Delivering all kinds of letters daily,
Every kind of purple parcel too.
And if the dog did try and grab a mouthful,
You could bite him back he'd taste delightful!
Wouldn't it be nice?

Lyrics for Part Three - Soccer superstar

Wouldn't it be nice if the world was Cadbury?
You could be a soccer super star.
The referee would blow his chocolate whistle,
A shot a goal would even break the bar.
And if you scored the winner
You could have the cup for your dinner.
Wouldn't it be nice?

Lyrics for Part Four (July 2003) - Family holiday

Wouldn't it be nice if the world was Cadbury?
Riding in the car would be a tasty treat.
Changing gears would soon become a problem
Cadbury dairy milk is so good to eat
When you arrive at your destination,
You'll be greeted with an exclamation!
Wouldn't it be nice?

Lyrics for Part Five (April 2005) - Maze crazy

Wouldn't it be nice if the world was Cadbury?
You could play inside a chocolate maze.
Run around and round to reach the middle
What a big surprise for you awaits.
If you couldn't find your way to freedom,
No need to run, just face the walls and eat 'em!
Wouldn't it be nice?

Lyrics for Part Six (August 2005) - At the movies

Wouldn't it be nice if the world was Cadbury?
Going to the pics would so sweet
There'd be no need for munchies
Cadbury dairy milk is the perfect treat
If someone came and blocked your screen view
Just take a bite and make a hole to see through
Wouldn't it be nice?

Lyrics for Part Seven (???) - Outer space

Wouldn't it be nice if the world was Cadbury?
You could eat your way through outerspace
Discovering new life on stars and planets
A triumph for the Cadbury human race
If you're gonna conquer alien ground
Just make sure you've got enough to go round
Wouldn't it be nice?

April 8, 2009

adeline in wonderland....

"i wanna tell you something, at a certain point in your life, probably when too much of it has gone by. you will open your eyes, and see yourself for who you are. especially for everything that made you so different from all the awful normals. And you will say to yourself but I am this person, and in that statement, there will be a kind of love. " - Phoebe In Wonderland.

Phoebe In Wonderland Poster

The whimsical tale of a young girl who struggles to follow the rules. Perplexed by her inability to get along with the rule-obsessed world around her, Phoebe seeks enlightenment and comfort from her unconventional drama teacher. PHOEBE IN WONDERLAND explores a young girl’s self-discovery and her journey to find acceptance.

i'm do much like her, in some ways.

April 7, 2009

take it or leave it....

i'm sick n tired of who i'm trying to be...
i'm tired of trying to be nice, friendly, cheerful, politically correct, tactful and mature.

i'm not any of those,
i know the consequences.
if u dun like it, so be it.
u dun have to like me.
i dun need u to be nice to me.
if u ask me for my opinion and dun agree with me,
y bother asking.
i rather u just piss off and get a life.

I WILL BE who I AM.
cos this IS who I AM.

take it or leave it.

April 6, 2009

March 23, 2009

this guy is so cool...



this is wat i call ART...
being unique...





hungry??

they should intro this in SQ

March 6, 2009

He's shiGGa SHAY.... comm'on everybody say HEY!!





he's not that bad man... i'm impressed...
singapore still got hope....
keep it up... pek jin shen...

February 23, 2009

in love with you... who?

The first time i laid eyes on you,
i knew.
I can't be wrong but i wasn't sure.
I took a chance.
I took a Risk.
It was worth it now,
I know now.

You're smooth,
You're easy on the eyes.
Your gentle words comfort me.
Your humor get me in stitches.
You take my breath away
during the climax.
You kept me in suspense
as i read your text.

You kept me company
thru the lonely nights.
you're the last thing i see
before i close my eyes.
I know i'll see you
the 1st thing in the morning.

I can't work,
I can't stop thinking about you.
You're irresistible.
my love.... my....

- my current fav book -
THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES
by Cecelia Ahern.

February 3, 2009

the 'F' 'U' word...

i maybe cheerful n carefree on the outside
but i'm surely not on the inside.

i'm as sensitive to the following words as the laser sensors in the museum

FAILURE USELESS

i was raised with these words thrown at me like a dog playing fetch.
i was young and emotionally weak,
i didn't know how to deal with these emotions
i could only rebel, trying hard to prove my worth.
but i soon found out my efforts were in vain.
Rebelling against those words were not an easy task.
each time i rebelled, my actions only proved my inability and my immaturity.

therefore i simply accepted it in due time.

as the years went by those words were the major triggers.
And often getting hurt time after time,
soon i've built an immunity to them.
What i do to prevent myself from harm?
when someone throws an arrow at me,
i'll stab myself a few time as hard as i can. (figure of speech of cos)
so that when the arrow hits me.
i would be too numb to feel anything.

after acquiring this skill i could longer feel pain so easily
and i grew to like this numb sensation.
but on hindsight, i became less sensitive to others,
and that was not good (as i'm told).

what have i become?
i can no longer love myself nor anyone
no matter how much i try.
the scar has eternally disfigured my esteem.

January 10, 2009

stress @ work....

when i get too stress at work
and can not bug others
i can only amuse myself with.....










January 1, 2009

HAPPY 2009.... @ MANA MANA

splendid time to relax and enjoy the ushering in of the new year
away from the crowd.