"I wanna tell you something, at a certain point in your life, probably when too much of it has gone by. You will open your eyes, and see yourself for who you are. Especially for everything that made you so different from all the awful normals. And you will say to yourself but I am this person, and in that statement, there will be a kind of love. " - Phoebe In Wonderland

June 11, 2008

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someone once said me " Hey ade, why r u such a bitch sometimes. u're a very nice person but sometimes simply an incorrigible bitch."

ok so here's the answer. i'm writing it up here not so that i can get advice to change instead people will understand me and accept me for who i m.

i'm always being told i'm useless and stupid my whole life. Some people can turn bad vibes into positive motivations, not for me. i'm a very emotional animal and feed on negativity. i love pain, i love morbidity. i think treating people nice is wrong. i hate myself. i dunno how to love myself therefore i dunno how to love others. therefore love will never love me.

if u frens out there can't understand and accept tis then too bad.
if frens out there wanna help me. then tell me why i should love myself.
i find no reason to love myself.
period.

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