"I wanna tell you something, at a certain point in your life, probably when too much of it has gone by. You will open your eyes, and see yourself for who you are. Especially for everything that made you so different from all the awful normals. And you will say to yourself but I am this person, and in that statement, there will be a kind of love. " - Phoebe In Wonderland

July 25, 2005

NOT comfortable in my own skin..... identidy crisis....

People like to ask....
"To love or be loved...?"
But i'll go
"What is love?"
"How to love to?"
they say "love urself first"
Often i question people these Qns,
but the answers i get isn't satisfactory enough.
i was told i needed confidence,
Just be myself and relax.
but i dunno even who i really am sometimes.
Constantly searching for the person i am,
take on different personas for different situation.
Ending up tired, confused, and still lost!
My weakness is laziness and procrastination
and probably lack of self motivation.
I'm always contradicting myself,
say something but doing another.
Or sometimes not doing anything at all.
Therefore, i conclued this life to be totally wasted.

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