between a rock and a hard place

Sigh.... its bad enough i'm such a fickle person.
Suddenly there's been plenty of issues to be decided upon.

when it comes to making decisions...
there are many elements aiding the choices
and knowledge is one of those elements.
to be able to recognize and accept the results is the deciding factor

from deciding what to eat, to determining my future
I have to settle on one out of the multiple options
if I'm lucky I get to pick two or more.
but what are the odds
especially when its about my life,
and possibly my future.
i wished i had some answers or a glimpse of tomorrow

How do I make a decision when I've the
"you won't know if you don't try" kinda attitude
time is the other element.
is it on my side... or is it not?

when I'm stuck at a ' Y ' junction, I'd
weigh the possibilities
examine the consequences
source for solutions
evaluate my personalities
and concur.
i hope.

There are times when i didn't need to think.
there are times when I've decided way before its time.
at times i take 3 seconds, 3 minutes, or even 3 hours.
and other times i took 3 days, 3 months,
and if I've the luxury of time 3 years.

But now its happiness vs money
the life long battle since our fore fathers
and it has and will remain this way.

happier person or a wealthier person?
better job prospect Vs studies
the industry i love Vs the industry that i can excel in

is the course right for me?
which course should i pursue?
will i pursue the industry i studied?
should i go back to previous vocation?
or should i start a new?
am i suited for this new industry?
i know i'm versatile but is the job flexible?

so many qns. so little ans.

The Power Of Honesty

the power of honesty

is forgiveness....

when one has the courage

to be honest and share the truth...

that the other party should

or will also have the courage

to forgive...

try it....

its liberating....

i just did...

awesome-ness

Had the most exhausting week ever....
entering another long n treacherous week...
tons n tons of things to do...
work never ending... while brain malfunctions
and l'il macky giveing minor problems ...
making me slightly paranoid...
maybe need to send him to hospital aka sapora...
which i'm sooooo reluctant to...

my personal todo list is buliding up like a sky scraper
lack of slp isn't helping... insomnia pls leave me alone
total hours of slp i have a week doesn't even add up to 30hrs
i need water... i need slp... i need pain killers....
bad neck... bad back... bad shoulders...

OH LORD.... pls give me strength to sustain this coming week....
Thanks....

sorry for all the lamentings...
Just wanna Thank a couple of ppl...

Terrence... thanks for letting me help u... its been awhile that i've writen a script... sorry for being late for rehearsals.... struggling with work n this is really quite painful... i think i'm more stress n physically tired as compared to the previous production earlier tis year...

Artists n crew of JUICEZ production and events company... thanks for letting me part of u guys... knowing how much older i m yet not despising me... i hope u guys manage to learn sth from me as much as i have learnt from u....

Simon thanks for helping me n my bro with the painting.... u work very fast!! woohoo... Thank u so much.... my hand, arm n neck super sore now....

lastly
Bern.... for tolerating my rubbish in office.... i know wat to do...

ok off to bed...
nites world....