here's the thing abt me....
when i want others to like the person i wanna be,
often i end up being unlikable.
when i want others to like the person i wanna be,
often i end up being unlikable.
how did i become so mentally uncontrollable?
lost all goal, lost all zest,
lost all motivation, and furvor of life's interest.
all hope n dreams have turned to vapour.
only thing stopping me returning to nature,
is knowing its an act of stupidity,
and a little voice calling inside of me.
nothing i do is of excellence.
my whole existence a complete abundance.
how could anyone have benefited from me?
all i bring is hurt and negativity.
can't find a single thing i'm good at.
can only remember things that are bad.
digging the pit i'm standing in,
looking at the rate that i am going
i can never get me out
of all this self doubt.
exposed to the gloom of a lonesome city
soaking up hatred and self pity.
there's little others can do to help,
almost impossible without a doubt.
its all up to Me with a capital 'M'
to put these behaviour to an end.
when will all these nonsense stop?
putting Love right on the TOP.
rejecting Love was how it started,
"what's there to love" and so i muttered.
after sorting for far too long,
not knowing what went wrong,
going after the things i don't need,
getting hurt and heart left to bleed.
the light of thee
brightly shining down at me.
thou unconditional grace and mercy,
thawed my heart so cold and icy.
lost all motivation, and furvor of life's interest.
all hope n dreams have turned to vapour.
only thing stopping me returning to nature,
is knowing its an act of stupidity,
and a little voice calling inside of me.
nothing i do is of excellence.
my whole existence a complete abundance.
how could anyone have benefited from me?
all i bring is hurt and negativity.
can't find a single thing i'm good at.
can only remember things that are bad.
digging the pit i'm standing in,
looking at the rate that i am going
i can never get me out
of all this self doubt.
exposed to the gloom of a lonesome city
soaking up hatred and self pity.
there's little others can do to help,
almost impossible without a doubt.
its all up to Me with a capital 'M'
to put these behaviour to an end.
when will all these nonsense stop?
putting Love right on the TOP.
rejecting Love was how it started,
"what's there to love" and so i muttered.
after sorting for far too long,
not knowing what went wrong,
going after the things i don't need,
getting hurt and heart left to bleed.
the light of thee
brightly shining down at me.
thou unconditional grace and mercy,
thawed my heart so cold and icy.
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Life at its Oxymorons
Life.
Contains full of oxymorons
One can feel on top of the world one moment,
and come crashing to the deepest valley the next
Have you ever felt in control of your life?
Only to find it spinning out of control?
Have you ever feel satisfied with how things are going?
Only to find that things do not stay that way?
Have you ever felt victorious looking at how you're growing,
Only to be overwhelmed when you catch a glimpse of what's ahead still?
Have you ever felt so passionate about something,
Only to realize that it is of no interest to you the next day?
Have you ever thought that someone means the world to you,
Only to discover that you can easily let go?
No wonder they say the only constant thing in life is Change.
And to humans who need stability,
Change is the thing that makes us feel so powerless.
Spinning around and around in circles,
With time flying past,
Just like the sand that slips through your fingers.
Many things one can aspire to do,
face the tug-of-war within,
as each demands attention.
When everything is urgent,
What is truly important?
Yes, life may be a walk of circles,
But as long as I know my final destination,
I'm not afraid to walk.
And for a life constant with change,
it is my comfort,
that My God does not change.
My only stability in this insecure world.
Life.
Without God, it is meaningless.
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