Christmas @ Phuket

After an abrupt decision and impromptu bookings, a much awaited holiday begins. woopee!!

22nd december 8am; my mum and i arrived at Phuket International Airport and are waiting to go thru the custom. To our surprise, Auntie Shirley had arrived and is waiting for her luggage.

Joke #1: Miscommunication via language barrier lead us to a wrong hotel. TharaPatong Resort (thought to be the old name of 'Bel Aire Hotel') ; instead ours is 'Bel Aire Resort' which is a newly opened resort.

I'm not a fan of groups or crowd, therefore i truly enjoyed the company of my anut and mum on the first and last day of the trip. I got to know my aunt better thru the many conversations thru'out the whole trip and realise she was also someone very opinionated and direct but tactful and careful with her words, which i've got to learn cos i'm jus too careless. I also noted that she has a word for eveything and doesn't use the same word to describe a certain thing twice. She also calls herself a 'coffee slut' haha... she drinks any kinda coffee (same goes for wine).

Lesson #1: DINNER served at 9pm!!
FACTORS ---> 11 people, too many opinionated and fussy people
RESULT--->"hungry people are angry people"

I get cranky easily and especially when it comes to food. I'm not a fussy eater. GOOD COMPANY over rights lousy food. well, wat can i say i'm a good company myself to begin with. keke....

Lesson #2: Its always good to have picture to have u communicate when language is a barrier.

My Dive master Makoto is a Japanese, a cute one i must add. Though his English isn't very fluent but it wasn't the worse i've heard (or maybe i'm jus a natural linguist) so I still could understand wat he was trying to say. On the whole, though my dive trip was cut short by 1 dive i was still super happy as i manage to see wat i wanted. The wreck - King Cruiser; a Japanese ocean liner sank 10yrs ago with extensive marine life. But most importantly bcos i saw a picture of it and it was amazingly taken so i told myself i've gotta see if it was really that amazing, and it is... it really is... breath taking for someone like me who hasn't seen such a hugh wreck.

Lesson #3: Go-karting can be dangerous but for kids always remind them to slow down around the corners.

Joke #2: Wear ur own bandana or scarf when go-karting. cos u'll be wearing really old and stinky helmets and be given paper shower caps which might get u caught by a fashion police.

Poor Zasha crushed and hurt her knee but she was alrite after dat. BRAVE GIRL! Jo and I had lotsa fun chasing each other, of cos he won... i didn't really know how to maneuver the car. As for Hannah and the rest of the adults they had their own fun.

Joke #3: Group photo in tuk tuk not advisable with mobile phone. haha...

I had a sudden photo taking frenzy with my mobile phone, of cos, and true enough i wasn't in it. I had to stretch my arm out all the way outta the tuk tuk, almost drop my phone, so scary... if u dun believe u can try... just dun blame me if ur phone drop... haha

Lesson #4: Dun ever waste ur time sleeping in ur hotel room.

If u really need to rest... sleep at the beach then u can catch the beautiful sun set or sun rise. how ever lousy a photographer u may be, such magnificent sight should never missed. Lucky for me, I got some good shots. well good enough for me.

Lesson #5: Always keep ur camera in hand fully charged.

Memory space will never be wasted capturing moments of people having fun together. Keep shooting at the them and you definitely have some good candid shots.

Joke #4: Be prepared to get all dirty and stinky for any prank on a festive holiday.

Even the quietest of people will spring up on u.. but it was all for the fun.... still remember uncle Zahri fell down while i chased him with the snow spray. The spray can be really stinky though. keke...

unfortunately, the day when we had the most fun as a family, no one took any pictures. Oh well, it was the fun we remembered that's more important. I hope... we have more of these gathering or trips.

.,.,.,.,.,.,.,., fU|LsToP and c0mMaS .,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,

Christmas is coming... this marks the end of the year and the beginning of another.
But most importantly... YEAR END BONUS !!!!

Boy.... have I waited for this day. It is more meaningful to me bcos it means I'll only have 2 1/2 months b4 I become the statue of LIBERTY!!! yes the year will come to a fullstop but our lives are filled with loads of commas, and this is just one of them for me.

I salute to all my other counterparts in this industry, some hanging on, some enjoying every moment. As for me? I'M GETTING OUTTA HERE!!! So long my friends. Till we meet again.... I swear I'll not Step into Novena station in the next 6 months after I leave. I might even cover my eyes and ears when the train passes by the station.

Hey PEOPLE!! Just in case I dun acknowledge u if u see me on the street, do come up and say Hi to me ok? I'm not being 'dao' (arrogant) I just dun normally search for familiar face in the crowds when I'm walking. Also guys from my department pls continue to drop me SMSes n update me on the daily crazy happenings, any more preggers / weddings. unexpected resignations or promotions.

AU VIOR
AUFWIEDERSEHN
ADIEU
ADIóS
ANTIO
CIAO
TOODLES
SAYONARA
BYE BYE
ZAI JIAN
ANNYONG
FAREWELL
SO LONG.

tHe rUn 0f mY |iFe - sTaNd cHaRt w0mEns 10km RuN

Though I stopped training since the haze contributed its share to the environment. I still managed to complete it with out passing out on the road.













my estimate time, took before i reached the finishing line






Tay and Janice met them by chance. kudos gals.

ming wei rite after he cross the line. 3 thumbs up bro!

my Number tag... let's go buy 4D! oh 5 numbers how to buy? hmm.....

My best friend's Wedding Part I

On One beautiful day,

magic happened to Two.

gathered by Three good friends,



with Four excited parents.



Five signatures,


changed Six lives.



more than Seven months of planning,



for a ceremony which felt like Eight minutes .



Ninty trays of dim sum were eaten,



Taiwan awaits on the Tenth.

Hairy Situation

We both have a hairy problem...

she loves cutting 'em, I love losing 'em.
That's the way it is for us...
She's my solution and I am hers.

This is the way it is between us.
she's vanny, my stylist.
Thanks babe.

Sun ~ Sand ~ Skin

Recently I've been heading down south to a l'il island to absorb some vitamin D. Taking the opportunity to create some of my work, and catching up on some reading. It is simply relaxing jus lying there, on my beach towel, baking in tanning oil (like a chicken in an oven), listening to funky tunes coming from my phone and oblivious to everything around me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SERENE!

a wonderful reunion spent at mind cafe.

[ : : t|nTeD eYeS : : ]

you didn't like wat you saw
i tried to change it all
i don't like wat i see
you judged me for wat i was trying to be
you said i tried too hard
i can't describe the pain in my heart
when i cried, u called me weak
when i'm bold, i'm conceit?!
self piting i am not
disbelieve, u look in shock
no chance for me to prove
marks so deep like record's groove
you looked thru a glass of stain
no matter wat i did, its all the same
your opinion doesn't matter to me now
my heart's as cold as the ceramic tile
sad and hurt i am NO MORE
fren like you i need not, i'm sure!

I HATE reading NO MORE

Thanks to a certain movie and someone who recently inspired me to read. I simply can not stop.... well also thanks to the authors of both books i've read. for someone who doesn't like reading even the simpliest thing like instructions or manuals, I finish a novel in a month... and now starting a on another. Both bestsellers and equally captivating.

[P.S. I LOVE YOU] by Cecelia Ahern, talks abt the journey of a young widow coping with life after losing husband to cancer with a little bit of help from him. A comedic novel written beautifully, almost letting u watch it in your mind.

[The Alchemist] by Paul Coelho. Fiction as it is, but within factual philosophies that can be easily applied to reality. "coelho's fascinating storytelling, with its mixture of spirituality, magical realism and folklore, makes The Alchemist a story that will delight and reader and inspire us all to follow our dreams." - Madonna

Korean Kraze...

In a recent craze my mum has turn Korean drama fanatic! I’m not sure if she’s getting old or she’s jus bored like she claims. But I guess to me, it’s her way she relaxes from her stress from work. Well on the bright side, I’m definitely benefiting from all this. Her high spirits makes her less grumpy. But on the down side…. She’s so addicted she watches it day and night… over and over… once in mandarin then in Korean then again for the ‘pro… duction…’ as she says; watching for costumes boo boos, screen play, storyline, directing… blah blah blah… she says its like fulfilling her desire to be a director… cos she knows its too tough to be one in reality. Well from the looks of all this… its still gonna be awhile for it to end… hopefully it doesn’t get any worse.

c0ncEpt 0f L0vE.....

The concept of LOVE....


Love is to communicate

Love is to respect

Love is to accommodate,
not compromise

Love is to scarifice

Love is simple

Love is to be urself

Love is to be your best

Last of all, Love is painful.

The longest 3 minutes

I haven't had this feeling for a long time.
I thought it'll nv ever return.
Its stronger than before,
I liked it in the past
but
This time it was unbearable.
It felt as though someone has ripped my heart out.
It didn't just end there,
It radiated down to my hands and legs.
Until I felt as though for a sec my soul left my body.

Its name is HEARTACHE
It stayed for the longest 3 mins I could imagine.

cLoSet SeLf

Skeletons walking out of the closet... and I dare admit I might be the following....

Beware.

• Lesbian
  I found comfort in my girlfrens when i feel like no man on earth will ever wan a crazy woman like me... Aslo I felt I could treat a lady better than guy cos i understood them better... but i know i'll nv be able to please them in another way...
• Sadistic Killer
  My raging temper is being suppressed so much when its being released i rather not open my eyes. The words from my mouth doesn't leave space for sympathy...
  
• HK Mafia Gangster
  Brotherhood to me is so important, it is to be loyal to your friends, trust them n stand up for them no matter wat. Betrayal its unforgivable...
  
• Obedient Housewife
  Passed down by mother, values enforced thru'out her life. Submissive wife, independent knowledgeble mother and filial daughter in law. Cooking, sewing, cleaning jus part of days work... no sweat.
  
  

but i'm still who i am.... same old crazy self.

THE REUNION

Three's not a crowd in this pic.

TIMBRE

Her + Me

Him+ Her = Us

Too much wine? or trying hard not cringe from the bad music?

The two love birds,

Bernard & Jacqueline.

Do we look alike?




For more pics check out
public.fotki.com/adeline

Mr Untouchable

Uniquely suave, dashingly eloquent,

Incredibly brainy yet silly by human nature,

irresistible,

But completely untouchable.

__________________________________

.......

Saddest puppy eyes I ever seen,

Heart melting experiences.

Imaginable beau qualities,

But completely untouchable.

___________________________________

.......

Single maybe available,

Love deprived and lonely,

searching...

But completely untouchable.

HAPPY happy HAPPY happy HAPPY happy HAPPY!!!!

Outta my shell, breathing easier.

Mind clear, think better.

mottos i live by.

"No one is perfect, why should I try to be?"

"I don't live to please people."

"You can't please the whole world."

"Don't expect, No disappointments."

"Live each day like its the last."

Don't let anything put u down.

"I don't hate the people I dislike but I don't like them either."

Relationship's journey is more important than the end.

People comes into ur life for a reason, learn from them.

All difficulties will be overcome when there is passion.

When there's passion there's detemination.

_________ :: ________________________ :: _________

These are the things I live by which makes me a happier person.

Do They Look Familiar at Work... part 2

have u seen these kinda people ard ur work place?

1. "I'm always right" - always think he/she is right specks loudly trying to emphasize each time that what he/she says/does is correct. But when mistakes are found he/she shyly covers up for their mistakes.
2. Gan cheong spider - even a simple call of their name will startle them to wits and they'll always reply in a hurry or anxious sort of manner.
3. "Follow the book" - excellent worker but unflexible to difficult situations. unable to compromise standards to allow impromptu improvisation.
4. Mind my own bussiness - Does their own work 'own time own target' then when finished smack butt n leave.
5. All talk no action - talk all day, pretending to be busy. false charting is a simple clue or sign... tell u they've done it but actual fact didn't but documented... how do they get a reading? I wonder too...
6. Outrageous boot ticker - always agreeing with the superior, tags along to wherever the superior goes. just like a parrot and ghost of the superior. Then when superior not ard will pretend to them. Appearing at the right time doing the right things.
7. PR personel - Absolute eloquent. Always saying the right time at the right time. able to turn white to black jus at the move of the lips.
8. High & mighty _ uses power and status to apply/add perssure to situations where in fact there is no trouble at all, turning harmless events to comotions.
9. Improper communicator - able to convey message but in a wrong tone. Always seems to be angry at the whole entire world or instructs colleagues like they owe him/her one million dallors.

I am NOT a SAD or ANGRY person...

As i read a blog of a fren... It seems as though.... i'm the most miserable person alive... sad, alone and angry. It puts me to shame when i see my blog... its not in a daily/weekly journal format cos my life isn't as exciting, filled with frens and happy moments all the time. u mite say my life is wat i make it to be... y m i so miserable then? y can't i stop comparing myself with others?

i'm really not a sad or angry person... i jus wanna be happy with myself for once... n stop being such a pain in the butt for people ard me.

How to look for the light outside when i'm blind folded inside the tunnel?
option A: i can remove the blind fold then on all fours crawl in any direction to a wall.
option B: shout for help, wait for someone to come...
option C: remove blind fold, pick up stones throw anticlockwise until it hits a wall, if nothing do the same thing but take a step forward then back at every quarter untill u hit the wall. then follow the wall till it ends.

but will it work it up to ur imagination.... faith and determination... good luck...

A Letter for You...

I got the tingling feeling when u told me u kept thinking abt me.

I felt secured when u told me will protect me my whole life.

I knew i'm safe when u said u wanted me to grow old with u.

I got nervous when u brought me to meet ur family for the first time.

I got nauseas when there was life inside me.

______ :: _____________________ :: _______

I like the feeling of getting used our home n family.

I like the feeling u became a better person because u loved me.

I like the feeling when we sit silence, me in ur arms for the longest time.

I like the feeling i get when u're angry cos u're worried abt me.

I like the feeling i get when u cry cos u're afraid of losing me.

I like the feeling when u're the last thing in my mind b4 i slp.

______ :: ____________________ :: _______

My heart wrenches when i helplessly see u despondent.

My heart aches when i misunderstood u.

It pains me when our misunderstanding is unresolved.

My heart's been ripped into pieces when i'm losing u.

It stops when u r no longer with me.

Apprehension of one own mother language - IELTS..... PART 2

It friday night and i'm lazying at home doing nothing as usual... my mum enters the room waving a brown A4 size envolope. calmly walking towards her I saw from afar at the corner of the envolope the logo of british council. I immediately ran and grabed it from her hand and holding it close to my chest jumping up n down like a crazy chimpanzee gone bonkers... well... almost..

i looked at the envolope for so long b4 deciding if i should open it... shoving it back n forth on the bed where i slumped onto.

"so? are u going to open it?" said my mum changing her clothes at a corner of the room. Then there was a long pause. "OF COS!" i yelled tearing the side of the envolope with a letter opener. I slowly puled out 2 pieces of paper 1 in green thicker than the other which was a letter congratulating me that I have passed. As I anticipate the courage to look at the results i paced ard the room like an anxious father waiting outside the delivery room.

"OH MY GOD!!!! I got band 7 woohoo...!" jumping up n down like a gummy bear whose drank a whole pint of gummy berry juice....

listening band 8
reading band 7
writing band 6
speaking band 7
overall band 7

"well done adeline..." I said to myself.

PEOPLE JUST DUNNO WAT THEY WANT!!!!

its so scary sometimes each time i listen to or heard of a break up. i'm jus waiting to hear wat's the stupid excuses they will give to their partner when they're the one who initiates the break up.

examples:
"... i can't forget her..."
"... its not fair for you..."
"... you're not the one..."
"... we were not meant to be..."
"... i dun like man..." she said.
"... i dun like woman..." he said.
"... i need more space..."
"... i need more time to reconsider things..."
"... we're moving too fast.."
etc...

there are loads more from where i come from...

so tell me how can anyone wanna fall in love in the first place, if endings are like dat now a days... little bit, little bit, break up.... where did "we'll go thru thick n thin together..." or "i'll walk with u till the end..." go to? i'm not saying u people must be die hard romantic but com'mon... is it so difficult to stick together? no wonder more and more people are turning homos (i'm NOT encouraging it ok?!). everything is abt sex... wait till u guys get STD i'll be the FIRST to laugh at u....

one of my buddies asked me "hey how to chase this girl i like huh?" i replied "wat does she like?"
"er i dunno... er... oh think she likes chocolate.." he said
"YOU DUNNO ANYTHING ABT HER N U WANNA CHASE AFTER HER?!" i exclaimed
"Hahaha.... er... cos i think she very pretty and seems like a sweet person."

like dat oso can chase ah? wah lao... so now a days guys so shallow wan ah... know nothing or dat little bit of 'thing' oso got guts to chase after her... why dun u guys take all those funny looking thing in your head called brain n flush it down the toilet bowl, since u're not using it anyways... ok this is besides the point...

OK... let's not tok abt the shallow idiots out there... y do people break up so quickly n so often now a days... cos people just dunno wat they want.... they want A, they want B, then they see C coming along n they want that too.... HELLO! can u make up ur FUNKING mind 1st! everything's abt sex sex sex... not boring ah... I HOPE ALL U causal DUMMIES OUT THERE GET incurable STDs even with protection!!!!

if u can't fucking make up ur pea sized brain then pls dun go hurting others as if ur mother owns the whole entire globe, even if u people think u're the king or queen of mother earth.... my only pray for u people is i hope u burn in hell.

thank you.

TERRIFYING WORLD and an Innocent little girl

My mother once told me, the reason why I behave the way I do today, is because I did not want to grow up. Day by day I begin to see the world more clearly, it is indeed an ugly world. This little gal inside of me has just came to terms with this reality. Filled with innocence, the fact of life hits her hard on the back of her head. Unable to accept or understand the fact she tries to cope with the people surrounding her. Thinking there are still kind, uncanning, selfless people around, she gets hurt over and over again. She doesn't realise it but she's being tossed around this vicious world, manipulated and used.

"Are there 'good' people in this world we live in today?" Sigh. I can only say the percentage is reducing rapidly. The influences are so strong, so dictative, seems impossible to ignore. How I wish I could turn a deaf ear or close a blind eye to all these ugliness. Why can't these differences be resolved and all work/live in harmony. Is it so difficult? The intensity of such disfigurement is beyond words. Each individual expressing his or her level of hostility, combined together and you'll get an erupting volcano. It’s truly miserable and annoying to be stuck in such a situation.

On the other hand, I attempted to change my attitude on this ugliness. I tried to see the "bright side" of things. It was only pleasant for a short period of time, and there were very little difference seen. Shortly after I reverted back to the old ways and it was almost impossible to envision the 'good' in anyone.

However, after much searching I realised it is in the attitude of the beholder to make the surrounding things pleasant. Difficult as in may be, it is still possible. In it tolerance, perseverance and acceptance are inculcated. I've yet to achieve these qualities but when I do I'll know I've grown up. I can't wait for that day to arrive.

Apprehension of one own mother language - IELTS

"Your future is bleak, i say my friend... one can only achieve one's best when one fully comprehends the knowledge of one's capablilities, and desires to achieve it. " - "wah u die la, u can pass if u know wat u can or cannot do and if u want to do it."

"How can one be equipped for the test one is to sit for, when one does not even apprehend the begining?" - "how to prepare for it, if i dun even know where to start?"

"Pursue one's passion and it will lead you there" - "follow ur heart lor, it will guide u lor"

"How can one be certain to such extend?" - "u sure anot?"

"one must attempt in order to fathom" - "u dun try how u know?"

"alright then.." - "ok lor"

write until like dat still dun pass i box u ah... wah if need to tok until likedat i die sia... 3 lines say until like telling grandma story so cheong hey... aiyo...

Abstinence makes the heart fonder and the mind obsolete

By experience, i dare say...
With proof, i dare prove...



enough said...

where art thou love?

My heart aches once again...

People ard me are gradually tying the knot.

The pressure is getting to me.

But I just refuse to settle for anyone.

I'm not being picky, just too frightened.

Frightened to be hurt,

Frightened to hurt people.

Turning numb and cold as stone,

Maybe I've forgotten how to love.

Better off alone...

I just wanna stay warm and cosy in someone's arms,

feeling protected and loved.

Is that so difficult ?

oUt 0f mY wiTs.....

Story:

A man stands on a roof top waiting for rescue from a rising flood. He shouts to GOD "OH almighty GOD pls get me out of here! Send me a Helicopter!" after a while a teenager clinging onto a hugh plank kicking towards him and shouted "hey let's kick to the building ard the corner where the land is higher and we can wait for rescue there" but the man replied "NO I'm waiting for GOD to send me a helicopter and I dun think we can make it there by kicking" hearing this the teenager continued his journey.

After an hour the floods rose to his toes and the man spotted an old man rowing a sampam shouting "hey! young man come quick the tides are rising, come into my boat and i'll bring u to higher ground" the man replied "I'm waiting for GOD to send me a helicopter and ayway ur boat is too small" Hearing this the old man took his pedals and rowed away...

3 Hours passed and the floods rosed to knee high. The man had some trouble standing when he heard a fishing Boat coming. They offered to rescue him but the man still refused n insisted to wait for a helicopter. Suddenly a big wave crushed on the man and killed him.

The man met GOD in Heaven and asked him angrily "why didn't u save me from the floods. didn't u say ask and i'll receive, seek n i'll find... so how come the helicopter didn't come?" the GOD replied "I sent 3 person to save u, but u did not care for them."

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this is getting on my nerve.... if u're not going to help urself then dun expect anyone to help u.... yes... toking abt myself n 'someone' else....

its jus freaking annoying to see someone jus sitting there rotting away, not wanting to help oneself! I can't take it anymore... i think at least i'm better off... i will move on... u're jus simply fucking selfish... i wonder if u even know wat's going on? U know wat... i won't be suprize u end up in woodbridge if u carry on like tis! NO ONE WILL GIVE UP ON U IF U DUN GIVE UP ON URSELF! I DEFINATELY WON'T!!!! dun jus depend on the pp ard you to shower love on you when u hate urself so much... i dunno wat to do with u...

seeing u like tis really wanna give u not 1 but 10 tight slap... u're in depression big deal... think abt the pp who has cancer! They suffer more than u ok! u can't cope not becos u can not.... bcos u dun wan to... u're jus so fucking contented with the life like tis... (immediate care n concern everywhere u turn) OOi.... life like tis won't be forever ok!! wake up la! everybody changes... soon pp ard u are going to move on or leave u (study, marriage, die) n wat are u going to do... who are u going to depend on? U think finding a man to depend on will help u... pls la dun be an idoit! which man see u like tis will even wan u?! Man wans INDEPENDENT women, women who can live/stand up on themselves when they(man) are not ard! not some super glue bimbo! Ok! so wat if the man doesn't mind u depending on him, u think it'll last for ever? u think ur life is so depressing, so wasted, u're hopeless.... that's bcos u're not putting enough effort to do anything... u meet an obstacle u give up pp push u u break down... so wat if u're like dat since young... u are like tis not only becos ur family brought u up like dat but becos u make urself like dat...

YOU'RE JUST RUNNING AWAY FROM UR PROBLEMS into a fairy tale land. HELLO!! its reality here ok... can u even see how many reality shows are on tv nowadays!?!?! I really dunno wat to do with u... and pls DYING/suicide won't solve ur problems!! INFACT its jus gonna make ur problems bigger.... so big that it'll become other people's prob.... u think u can jus dump ur problems to others? U think pp will remember u as someone they love if u die/suicide.... WRONG!!!!! pp will only remember how foolish n selfish u were.... u dun love and respect urself how can u expect anyone to do the same for u? everything gotta starts with Y.O.U!!!

ITS NOT TOO LATE TO WAKE UP n start doing sth for urself.... ONLY IF U WANNA DO IT ON UR OWN n not depend on others... but u have to start on ur own 1st... its not easy but we're there for u.... pp will only help when they see the effort u put in... can't u see the pp ard u are so tired trying to help u... but u're jus pushing them away by NOT helping urself.... the way u wan them to help is not the way u can be helped becos there're obstacles on ur side dat needs to be cleared 1st.... if u can't even do dat for urself.... no one can help u... (read properly... its CAN'T help u NOT WON'T help u).

look at the story above, u're jus like dat man standing there waiting and waiting for sth mite or mite not come... y can't u jus take a step of faith swim to the boy on the plank. Everyone can see the improvements in u since the last time but there are certain limits of help we can extend. (eg. how can we help u stop thinking.... dig ut ur brain meh? stupid rite) so pls... open ur eyes we're all here for u... ok!?!?!

haiz....

I HATE PROPAGANDA!!!!!

POLL! POLE! POH! ah.... watever...! like I actually care.... please.... Aiyo... why make such a big hooha abt a simple election.... if we're electing our PM, fine.... put his/her face on every poster my eyes come in contact with..... I might still think abt who i'm voting... but pls.... its jus the elections for our district..... do u have to make such a big fuss...

Seriously...... I had to go MEridIan pRimaRy ScH0OL to cast my 'SECRET VOTE' or 'SayCret vote'. I went there, people ushered, walked in, didn't even need to cue up or wait. Walked up to the table, some men took my passport and poll card then called out a serial number with my full name.... At this point if u're thinking of some nurse in a clinic calling ur name, then boy u're in for a shock. Well I wasn't expecting it, so it definately sounded funny and weird. Then in a quire way I took the polling card and walked up to the stand. My face was expressionless but my actions weren't... I didn't mean to look like this but I think I came across as if saying "Damn it. This is a waste of my time... so let's get this over and done with." I took the pen (didn't even read wat was on the paper), saw the lightning symbol and made a loud cross in the space given. Slammed the pen, stretched over to the box, shoved the paper in, and turned around and walked away.

At retrospect, when I stood at the stand, holding the pen, I thought to myself "Shit I'm voting for the First time!! This is so exciting..." yeah yeah so cliche so silly... but when I walked off I felt a little... yeah a tiny incy, wincy little bit patriotic.

Enough said, if u think the voting and propaganda is all over hyped... then u haven't seen the results.... haiz..... Singaporeans...

*shaking head* tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk.....

My Frist....

My first working trip, leading leisure divers, giving briefing, and it was stress beyond words. As a leisure diver myself i dived freely. However, when I was told I needed to take leisure divers out, I just couldn't help but to broke out into a nervous break down... well not immediately... gradually. I was trying so hard to visualise how I was going to give the briefing and lead the dives but was in vain. Well it didn't occure to me how bad i was until i had a dry run with my instructor n a fellow Dive Master (who was going for the same trip as me - Brenard).

I had to work after the practise session, I couldn't concentrate on my work the whole night, my insecruities flew all over the place. Even with the help of information in front of me, I was like a shaken coke bottle waiting to burst into tears.

The moment was here, the moment of truth. I stammered, I paused, I missed out important points. I couldn't pretent to be brave, yet only GOD knows how my knees were shaking under those shorts. Somehow they (the customers) just knew I was a Rookie and cut me some slack. I'm eternally grateful. They were patient, they were enduring, they were the kindest people i've met. I hope.

But I am my toughest critic, my comforter, and counselor. I should have smiled more, controlled my moods and temper better. WHY? cos my customers were asking how I was doing instead of the other way round. ~ashamed. But then again its my First trip, everyone has a first time and i hope i'll be given a Second. Hopefully I'd be better by then.

Well, here's something to laugh about, if its laughable. Firstly, I was so irritated by the sandfly bites all over my body, my temper was already almost reaching boiling point. Secondly, we were woken up by some OLD annoying honky/singy FISHERMAN talking so damn loudly early in the morning. "HELLO! AH PEKS!! diving is tiring oso alrite? Sleep is bloody precious!! So SHUT the F**K UP!! OK?! We dun wanna know wat u had for dinner 2 months ago in some bloody restaurant in the maldives! WE JUST WANNA SLEEP!!!!!!!! understand?!?!?!?!?!"

Our attempts to shut them up was oso quite childish in retrospect. Slammming the doors, knocking the glasses, me screaming.... ~ashamed. But I came to a conclusion "These old men won't shut up cos they're old, probably too deaf to hear our pathetic attempts. Anyway, they're so old they're probably gonna die soon so why bother getting up set with them? Just let them be, their days are numbered!!" HAHAHA!!!!!

Ok, that was mean but really... the next morning we woke up earlier than them n yet we were polite enough not to make a din. So Let's call it quits ya? So at the end of the day, I gave myself.......

4/10 FAIL.



Comments or Reassurance are welcome.......

A very TIRED n SCARED cat

My mind's a blur.
Mixtures of feelings.
CONFUSED emotions.
Uncertain prospect
Doubtful, suspicious.


Semi-insomnia.
Lack of sleep.
Eye lids are heavy.
Eye rings are too dark.
ZOMBIE-fied.


Body over mind.
Crazy mood swings.
Uncontrollable appetite.
Ffluctuating weight.
__________ :: __________________________ :: ___________

SHOPPING @ BANGKOK!!!!

It’s the end of my vacation, but I'm still holidaying inside. Every part of me is telling me not to get up from bed so that I can sleep just that little bit longer. The alarm rings, and I'm reminding myself I've got to work today.... going back to work after the holidays always feels sickening.

I'm a very practical kinda person; therefore I plan my trip meticulously from lodging to itinerary to transportation, leaving some room for sudden change of plans. For those who knows me, they'll know as much as I enjoy the planning and co-ordinating, I make it an utmost importance that they proceed smoothly with hopes of little hiccups. Its the first time I planned a trip for 2 all by myself from date setting to planning itinerary.... but thanks to some friends who helped along the way if not I'll be completely lost... BUT most importantly to diana, thank you for letting me plan the whole trip and your excellent company thru'out th trip.

The weather in Bangkok was so scotching hot, its amazing how powdery smooth the faces of the Thai girls' were. While ours were collecting buckets of perspiration, their make up were immaculate. Although both of us were totally thrilled at the fact we made it to Bangkok on our own (only 2 ladies) and were ready to hit the stores like never before, we made sure that we were comfortable, relaxed and prepared for the heavy duty shopping. Photos link www.public.fotki.com/adeline

The day we arrived, we racketed the nearest shopping mall (MBK) for the price range for the items on our shopping list. We were so engrossed shopping the 7 storeys shopping mall; we quickly settled late lunch at a local steamboat restaurant (MK) and continued till all the shops were closing. While strolling back to the hotel we decided to try some local gourmets at a roadside stall. Something memorable was a strange noise, which grew louder, and louder until before we knew it there was an elephant right before our eyes with a handler asking if we’d like to feed the poor creature a bunch of bananas or a bag of peanuts at a small fee of 100baht (S$4). Still in shock we declined and continued our meal.

The following day, Friday 10th march ’06, Diana decided we’d go to some historical site or museum. Looking the night before, we found a ‘JIM THOMPSON House Museum’ the home of the creator of Thai silk. The house museum was lavished with mainly antics of Burmese paintings, furniture and artefacts. The entire structure was designed by Jim Thompson himself; combined with both Burmese and American features in a Thai styled house. Tours were provided by the museum with local guides who were fluent in French, Spanish, Japanese and English. Details www.jimthompsonhouse.com/
Following the visit, we conquered another famous shopping district called Siam Square. Ending the day was a relaxing foot reflexology.

Bright and early on the 3rd and 4th day, there won’t be another place to be except for the infamous Chatuchak market. It only opens on weekends from 8am to 6pm, and trust me you need to be there early. The extensive land of the wholesale market consist of thousand of stalls, you can get basically everything you need at this market at the most affordable price. Exhausted physically and financially, unable to go to the foot reflexology, we soaked our feet in the bathtub with scented shower bath on Saturday. On Sunday night however, as it was the last night we couldn’t miss the Night bazaar at SuanLum. Although it was not as huge as chatuchak, there were as many stalls.

Pooped over the weekends, the final day of our trip started late. We skipped breakfast and check out during brunch. Once again we strolled to MBK for some last minute shopping picking up items we missed out. On the way we had a quick meal at a roadside stall selling economic rice. We returned back to the foot reflexology shop for a last massage and took some pictures with our regular mesus. Took more pictures on the way back to the hotel and zoomed off to the airport. Almost excited to go home, I was really sad that the vacation had just flu by at a wink of an eye.

If you really asked me “what’s so memorable about trip?” I’d say there were four emotions to describe them… terrified, funny, amazed and proud.

Firstly, the credit card stuck in ATM moment. I was scared stiff but I kept my cool…the elephant moment as mentioned earlier. Secondly, MTV programmes and music videos were repeated 4 times/day for all 5 days, we could even predict the following programme. Also, we actually got to know a Canadian guy while Jacuzzi dipping at the pool deck one night. It was simply hilarious. Lastly, I’m amazed at how smooth the Whole trip went and definitely proud of myself.

NO REGRETS!!!

I only regret things I've not able to do and not the things dat I've done.

but regreting is just waste of time, now....?

As NIKE says it...

"Just Do It"

Hin Daeng Hin Muang

This trip was a very fruitful one. I not only survived a trip alone, met new friends, experienced new things (first LOB) and gained a lot of knowledge.

My phone rang and dennis (my instructor) on the other line said i would be taking MV Mermaid II, a very big boat instead of MV White Manta. I was apprehensive yet excited, all sorts of mixed feeling were going thru my head. Worrying mostly. Wondering if I would be able to mix well with the people aboard, which would eventually affect my dive. But as night fell i was not left with any choice but to put my feelings aside as i went to bed. I arrived at Phuket early in the morning 07:30am, I was pleasantly greeted by Ms Kay Golding, an English born-Australian bred lady with a bubbly cheer. I'll always remember her rich voice answering phone calls "Mermaid liveaboards! GOOD MORNING!"

To much relieve i was well accepted by all, by the end of the 2nd dive. My bunk mate (Kaori Suzuki - left) a tannned, petite blond japanese lady, who spoke as much english as I could articulate japanese was the sweetest darling. (I'm truly blessed to be rooming with her.) Initially I thought she was a quiet and reserved person as she was always sitting alone during meals but as I observed closely she was actually very keen to get to know me and interact with the others. Maybe just shy towards the rest due to the language barrier. I was the only other asian whom she could best connect with compared to the rest who mainly communicated in German or english, to which she was very foreign to.

On my right is Chris and left is Walter/Wally (either not "whatever") are both Americans. Chris who lives in India works for wireless system company. Thank you for sharing your wonderful pictures and travel tales. Walter, on the other hand is a travel agent from the United states, who travelled wherever his feet took him. Numerous places I could only dream of going. Also thru'out the whole trip sharing many of his exciting and interesting expeditions and road trips. "Do take care of yourself, dear walter." i hope to see you in Singapore one day.

<- This is Beto, a Brazillian who speaks 5 different languages (English, porturgues, Japanese, spanish and German). He is our Cruise Director and also Dive Master for my sub-group. His humour is subtle, his smile is alluring. His manner is gentle and his advices are empowering. Never failing to assure my comfort thru'out the trip. Thank YOU very much. This is Danny Van Belle (right), an underwater videographer. Once you get to know him, he is extremely friendly and caring, and ever ready to dispense dive tips and knowledge. With his 2000 over dives in 10 years, he is more than suitable. Thank you for reminding me about my no flight time.

NOW this charming English gentlemen on the left is JEZ, also an underwater videographer and photographer. His pictures and videos are as exquisite as his megawatt smile. He's got a bag load of humour hiding up his sleeves just waiting for the right moment to dish it out. "I can make spagetti..." I exclaimed during one of our meals and he replied "just the spagetti or with the sauce". Well, Jez if you ever make a trip to Singapore, you'll know if its 'just spagetti' haha...

These two dashing skin heads, are Christoph (with glassess) a Swiss and Andree a Greman. Sadly with a failing memory I could not recall what he does for a living, but as for Andree he was one of the Dive Masters on board. Danke for the cocktails on Phi Phi Island :P i'm hopeless when it comes to alcohol keke... After a night of Fun on Phi Phi Island, it was a time of farewell bidding and photo taking for me. MORE PHOTOS!! yeepee!! And to bed i went...

Before the yoke jumps out of the sea, before the break of dawn, my unwilling departure was certainly not lonesome. Dear Kaori's companionship was truly touching as she bidded farewell before the dinghy sped off into the black sea.

To all my lovely new friends, till we meet again. Enjoy more photos at public.fotki.com/adeline

wHaT d0 U sAy?

Some people say Love is a dangerous game.
A game some dare not part take if they've no confidence of the result.
A game some wouldn't start if its not for sure.
A game where vulnerability is the cause of hurt.
A game only the focused mind n strong hearted can play.

Some people say Love is all about fate n destiny.
If its yours , its yours.
Searching and waiting all your life for 'the one'.

Some people say Love is about making it happen.
Putting the effort to do what it takes to be together.
Acceptance and compromise.

Some people say 'Love makes the whole goes round'.
I say... 'what comes around, goes around'.

so what do u say?

Valentine's Day.

A day where people are bounded by commercial gimmicks, obligated to hurl out dollar bills, emptying their pockets.

A day where love is being exalted to the most high.

A day where no other is made to feel the best in the other's eyes.

A day where man are often expected to propose.
A day where women are sent flowers.
A day where couples are brought together.
A day where babies are created.
A day where the world comes together for one thing.
A day where countries unite for the same reason.
A day where some cities cry out for it for the longest time.
A day where superficiallity is so apparent yet oblivious.

SAREE? SARI?

"wow u look good in a sari gal!" exclaimed my colleague, and indeed i was very comfortable in it. It wasn't my first time wearing a sari but it'll be my first wearing it to a wedding. Excited as i was, i couldn't stop thinking what will my friends say when they saw me at the wedding.

well, the one who helped me look this good was an indian colleague, Rajani (right). Although she was working she helped made me up. Folding, pulling, tucking, pinning and VOALA! we have a sari.

When i arrived at the dinner hall, my friends said i needed a choker or something cos i looked too plain, but they all love the colour of my sari and i looked really good in it.

its ANG BAO TIME!!!!

Its this time of the yr again... Chinese new year... i must say this years collections was a shock to me, not that i'm complaining (there are some pp who doesn't get at all) but its maybe due to timing or sth... my total collection has been down by more than half... not that pp gave lesser.... but the amt of pp i saw was very much fewer... "where have all the pp been? hiding?"

Anyway, for me its the time of my life where i start to recive pink envolopes. I've already heard of 4 of my frens planning to have theirs this yr... think i'll have to save aside an amt specially for this called 'pink coloured bombs' or 'fen hong se zha dan' in mandarin. But it'll be the biggest for me next yr... cos it'll be for someone special. haiz...

i need a better paying job.. seriously.... wat i'm earning is not even 'peanuts'... probably 1 grain of powder from the grounded 'peanuts'.

Maybe i should pray hard i win the 10mil TOTO... ha.

The FIRST dive of the year @ Ghost Island

Before i become totally dehydrated from sea water, thank God dennis asked me if i'm interested to assist in a Rescue course. "R U KIDDING?! OF COS I'M FREE!" even if i'm not i'll make it ..... so there i was helping out at the pool session, i think its more like refresher course for me too keke....

sunday, we left RSYC on MV seaborne (my first time again), met james from diver city... Vis was abt 3m if no one kicks up silt. Of cos, its impossible. we had 2 dives the first was a check out dive jus to pre-amp the divers on the water conditions for the search rescue later on.

Food on board was gr8... fried bee hoon, spicy tuna fillings and cooked onion hotdogs. One of the diver lost his mask n snokle while towing me back to the boat. The day ended to be gr8 fun of sun, save and sea. Conclusion, being rescued isn't easy ok.