"I wanna tell you something, at a certain point in your life, probably when too much of it has gone by. You will open your eyes, and see yourself for who you are. Especially for everything that made you so different from all the awful normals. And you will say to yourself but I am this person, and in that statement, there will be a kind of love. " - Phoebe In Wonderland

October 25, 2012

understanding to be understood

"There is no one, absolutely not a single soul who can totally... completely.... understand you."

BUT!

When there is NO ONE who persist in making an effort to TRRRRRYYYY to understand you, accept you and love you... (for who u are) then THAT! is very sad.

Solution : dig a hole n bury urself. ok that's not practical.

Alternative solution : Avoidance, be passive or even transparent. 

Adverse reaction : You WILL be forgotten. there's not much worth in being alive.

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i seek for the longest time,
a like minded person.

there is none.

i know i am quire, melancholic n some what eccentric.
i never expect anyone to accept me with open arms immediately.
i'm atypical and a non conformist (unlike general public).

what's there to like about me?

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it is difficult for anyone to love me,
cos i cant love myself.
it is also difficult for me to love diversities,
cos i do not have love at all.

How does one acquire love?

is it inert or is it learnt?
is it already in my genes?

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who does not want to be understood?
who does not want to share their lives with others?
who does not want to be accepted and welcomed?

but when differences are conflicting so resoundingly and outstandingly,
who will be able to put aside their differences and embrace you?

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we are all flawed.
only with flaws, makes us exclusive.
why are we constantly correcting our flaws (just to conform to the society),
denying ourselves of the uniqueness?

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my life long quest for love continues.....