even ex-cons have yellow ribbon

please stop looking at me thru a tinted glass
please let me be me... i beg u.... please..... *sob

i'm tired of being compared to my past
my every move n speech is on the chopping board ready to be attacked
i'm in pain but i must hide it.
why can't my bygones be bygones?
why do everyone keep judging every single one of my behaviour?
why is it when others hurt me i must accept it?
but i can't retaliate back?
is it my retribution?

who does no wrong?
i feel like a newly released criminal
not given a second chance...
why do people only give 2nd chances?
are we not allowed to make mistakes more than twice?

love-less..... (heartless)
you ask me why i'm always being mean to people
i'm so love-less..... (heartless)
bcos i was nv taught how to express love
and i have a whole bunch of injustice
stored up inside i can't let go off

you may think these are all excuses
but these are all valid reasons for me
only people who really knows me
see my change and will not pick on my constant faults
and gently remind me not to make the same mistakes

when i do good who rmbs?
when i helped u who cares?
when i comforted u instead of judging u...
will u rmb?

where is my yellow ribbon?
do i not deserve one?

prisoner....

i am who i am like it or not....

i am verbally violent
i am shameless
i am impatient
i am tactless
i am cold n heartless
i am highly irritable
i am non compliant
i am compassion-less
i am loud n rude
i am fussy and meticulous
i am irrational and impulsive
i am fickle and indecisive
i am erratic and compulsive
i am deceiving
i am obsessive and jealous
i am brainless n clueless
i am blunt and too direct

i am lame n slap stick
i am crazy n ridiculous
i am comical and animated
i am loving n caring
i am silly n cute
i am seductive and alluring
i am sweet and sour
i am creative and innovative
i am understanding and accepting
i am independent and self sufficient
i am happy and bubbly
i am bright n chirpy
i am bold and some wat strong
i am confident
i am helpful
i am quite convincing
i am fast learner
i am a thinker
i am practical and realistic

i am a gemini.

3's my lucky number....

i recently started working at an international coffee place as a barista...

the learning process has been fun so far...

but i can see the stress ahead...

the environment is fun, friendly and welcoming

everyone's bright n chirpy...

happy all the time...

time passes very quickly....

i hope i can survive in the fast pace environment...

only thing is... there LOTSA CLEANING & WASHING!!!

more than wat i did in nursing!!! yikes!!

but i dun mind... can play with water!!!

hahahha

dramatic LOVE stories

海派甜心

就想賴著妳

下一站，幸福

after watching these 3 shows i've concluded some morals of the stories behind them...

1. 付出的爱一定会有回报的, 无论要等多久.
2. the breakdown of a relationship is 90% miscommunication n 10% misunderstanding
3. 要爱一个人， 就要了解他 所有， 接受他所有。
4. in order to understand someone, there must be 100% communication n honesty
5. never assume their feelings, thoughts and their actions.
6. trust is the root of all solutions.

how much do u love me?

if love is selfish and irrational....

so if i'm selfless n practical kinda person....

means i don't love u?

if to love is to sacrifice....

and if i don't...?

means i don't love you?

if love is to listen...

and if i don't...

means i don't love you?

if love is to die for you

and if i don't...

means i don't love you?

wat bull is this?

TRUE OR FALSE??

maturity is how well you manage your emotions...

to the future you...

Written after being inspired by 'The Time Travelers Wife'

i'm waiting but not mindlessly,

i'm patient as it takes forever to to come,
i'm independent dependently...

i'm thinking yet ignoring all signs to do so,
i'm realistic yet i ponder on things that are not,

when will you be here...
here to comfort my sore lonesome heart,
here to rejoice on the silliest thing that excites me,
here to answer my nonsensical questions,

here to laugh at my lame cold jokes,

here to warm me when i'm cold,

here to sit by my angry self in silence,

here to straighten my illicit thoughts,

here to keep me on track when i derail,

here to hold me when i'm weary,

here to let me be me....

when....

when will you be here...

for me to love u back the way you would...

i'm tired....

tired of waiting...

tired of being strong to the whole world,

tired of being afraid in the dark alone,

tired of crying to sleep,

tired of wondering...

tired of giving up

tired of picking the wrong one till i find u.

..... tired... but still waiting.... always will....

patiently yours....

love is irrational n illogical

read this somewhere... n had to share it...


"Love is heart, action and words in one.

You always have a reason to end a relationship or hurt someone but you need no reason to love someone. Loving someone truly is not a feeling to give a reason to because that feeling will fade, that reason will not last. When you still love despite of all circumstances and your heart still long for that person no matter what, you know you need no justification to love as no reason on earth can best describe how you feel and why you love. When the whole world think you should give up and yet your heart still aches for her, you know only she matters to you.



Our limitations and success will be based, most often, on our own expectations for ourselves. What the mind dwells upon, the body acts upon. --Denis Waitely"

something i have not...
"a caring heart and always weighing how words and actions can impact on others before you say or do anything."

love you forever...

If ever you needed to talk
You could talk to me
Oh, could you talk to me?
If ever you feel like you're lost
You can count on me
I’ll find you a way
When the lights go out
In the Universe
I’ll be next to you
I’ll be next to you
And I surrender myself
To you
I’ll love you forever
I’ll like you for always
For always
Together we’ll be
I’ll love you forever
I’ll like you for always
For always
Together we’ll be
Yeah
Together we’ll be
Yeah
If ever you’re too sick to walk
I’d carry you
And take care of you
If ever you feel scared and alone
I’d hold you
And I’d just hold you
When the lights go out
In the universe
I’ll be next to you
I’ll be next to you
And I surrender myself
To you
I’ll love you forever
I’ll like you for always
For always
Together we’ll be
I’ll love you forever
I’ll like you for always
For always
Together we’ll be
And when you get cold
Just like you do
I’ll give you my coat
Cause I’m here for you
And as we grow old
I promise to love you with every breath
That is true
When the lights go out
In the universe
I’ll be next to you
You’ll be next to me
And I surrender myself
And I surrender myself
To you
I’ll love you forever
I’ll like you for always
For always
Together we’ll be
I’ll love you forever
I’ll like you for always
For always
Together we’ll be (echoes)

just for u....

I'll try to relate if you will talk to me
I'll try to be great, like it were meant to be
You think that maybe we could sit for a while
Come out and say the things that you like to do
And I'll do my best to try to relate to you
I hope that maybe we could sit for a while

And I, wanna thank you, I wanna thank you.
I wanna thank you for not being afraid.

And I, wanna thank you, I wanna thank you.
I wanna thank you for not being afraid.

Cause you know you're perfect to me
I hold my breath just to hear you speak

As time has gone by, I've seen you in every way
from angry to sick and everything day by day
you're still the most beautiful girl in the world
I know you're the best at everything that you do
and none of the rest could ever compare to you
Always in my eyes you're my number one girl

And I, wanna thank you, I wanna thank you.
I wanna thank you for not being afraid

And I, wanna thank you, I wanna thank you.
I wanna thank you for not being afraid.

Cause you know you're perfect to me,
I hold my breath just to hear you speak
and I hope this dream never ends
cause you know you're my bestest friend

And I, wanna thank you, I wanna thank you.
I wanna thank you for not being afraid.

Cuz you know you're perfect to me.
I hold my breath just to hear you speak.

And I hope this dream never ends.
Cuz you know you're my bestest friend.

First post of the YEAR

Red. green. yellow n blue

TWENTY TEN's gonna be so COOL

i can not wait for it to start

somethings pumping... OH that's my heart!

Goals n targets

MUST be met.

if you wan the prize,

now its time to get energized!

off your butts you lazy bums

watch out! look out! here it comes!

a big huge ball of ecstasy

come on! let's go! let's follow me!

walk on, strive on, must persevere!

for there is nothing we should fear.

with our hearts n minds all set

what we want i'm sure we'll get!

woohoo!!

press on!!