"I wanna tell you something, at a certain point in your life, probably when too much of it has gone by. You will open your eyes, and see yourself for who you are. Especially for everything that made you so different from all the awful normals. And you will say to yourself but I am this person, and in that statement, there will be a kind of love. " - Phoebe In Wonderland

September 30, 2006

Do They Look Familiar at Work... part 2

have u seen these kinda people ard ur work place?
  1. "I'm always right" - always think he/she is right specks loudly trying to emphasize each time that what he/she says/does is correct. But when mistakes are found he/she shyly covers up for their mistakes.
  2. Gan cheong spider - even a simple call of their name will startle them to wits and they'll always reply in a hurry or anxious sort of manner.
  3. "Follow the book" - excellent worker but unflexible to difficult situations. unable to compromise standards to allow impromptu improvisation.
  4. Mind my own bussiness - Does their own work 'own time own target' then when finished smack butt n leave.
  5. All talk no action - talk all day, pretending to be busy. false charting is a simple clue or sign... tell u they've done it but actual fact didn't but documented... how do they get a reading? I wonder too...
  6. Outrageous boot ticker - always agreeing with the superior, tags along to wherever the superior goes. just like a parrot and ghost of the superior. Then when superior not ard will pretend to them. Appearing at the right time doing the right things.
  7. PR personel - Absolute eloquent. Always saying the right time at the right time. able to turn white to black jus at the move of the lips.
  8. High & mighty _ uses power and status to apply/add perssure to situations where in fact there is no trouble at all, turning harmless events to comotions.
  9. Improper communicator - able to convey message but in a wrong tone. Always seems to be angry at the whole entire world or instructs colleagues like they owe him/her one million dallors.

September 20, 2006

I am NOT a SAD or ANGRY person...

As i read a blog of a fren... It seems as though.... i'm the most miserable person alive... sad, alone and angry. It puts me to shame when i see my blog... its not in a daily/weekly journal format cos my life isn't as exciting, filled with frens and happy moments all the time. u mite say my life is wat i make it to be... y m i so miserable then? y can't i stop comparing myself with others?

i'm really not a sad or angry person... i jus wanna be happy with myself for once... n stop being such a pain in the butt for people ard me.

How to look for the light outside when i'm blind folded inside the tunnel?
option A: i can remove the blind fold then on all fours crawl in any direction to a wall.
option B: shout for help, wait for someone to come...
option C: remove blind fold, pick up stones throw anticlockwise until it hits a wall, if nothing do the same thing but take a step forward then back at every quarter untill u hit the wall. then follow the wall till it ends.

but will it work it up to ur imagination.... faith and determination... good luck...

September 12, 2006

A Letter for You...

I got the tingling feeling when u told me u kept thinking abt me.
I felt secured when u told me will protect me my whole life.
I knew i'm safe when u said u wanted me to grow old with u.
I got nervous when u brought me to meet ur family for the first time.
I got nauseas when there was life inside me.
______ :: _____________________ :: _______
I like the feeling of getting used our home n family.
I like the feeling u became a better person because u loved me.
I like the feeling when we sit silence, me in ur arms for the longest time.
I like the feeling i get when u're angry cos u're worried abt me.
I like the feeling i get when u cry cos u're afraid of losing me.
I like the feeling when u're the last thing in my mind b4 i slp.
______ :: ____________________ :: _______
My heart wrenches when i helplessly see u despondent.
My heart aches when i misunderstood u.
It pains me when our misunderstanding is unresolved.
My heart's been ripped into pieces when i'm losing u.
It stops when u r no longer with me.

September 8, 2006

Apprehension of one own mother language - IELTS..... PART 2

It friday night and i'm lazying at home doing nothing as usual... my mum enters the room waving a brown A4 size envolope. calmly walking towards her I saw from afar at the corner of the envolope the logo of british council. I immediately ran and grabed it from her hand and holding it close to my chest jumping up n down like a crazy chimpanzee gone bonkers... well... almost..

i looked at the envolope for so long b4 deciding if i should open it... shoving it back n forth on the bed where i slumped onto.

"so? are u going to open it?" said my mum changing her clothes at a corner of the room. Then there was a long pause. "OF COS!" i yelled tearing the side of the envolope with a letter opener. I slowly puled out 2 pieces of paper 1 in green thicker than the other which was a letter congratulating me that I have passed. As I anticipate the courage to look at the results i paced ard the room like an anxious father waiting outside the delivery room.

"OH MY GOD!!!! I got band 7 woohoo...!" jumping up n down like a gummy bear whose drank a whole pint of gummy berry juice....

listening band 8
reading band 7
writing band 6
speaking band 7
overall band 7

"well done adeline..." I said to myself.

September 5, 2006

PEOPLE JUST DUNNO WAT THEY WANT!!!!

its so scary sometimes each time i listen to or heard of a break up. i'm jus waiting to hear wat's the stupid excuses they will give to their partner when they're the one who initiates the break up.

examples:
"... i can't forget her..."
"... its not fair for you..."
"... you're not the one..."
"... we were not meant to be..."
"... i dun like man..." she said.
"... i dun like woman..." he said.
"... i need more space..."
"... i need more time to reconsider things..."
"... we're moving too fast.."
etc...

there are loads more from where i come from...

so tell me how can anyone wanna fall in love in the first place, if endings are like dat now a days... little bit, little bit, break up.... where did "we'll go thru thick n thin together..." or "i'll walk with u till the end..." go to? i'm not saying u people must be die hard romantic but com'mon... is it so difficult to stick together? no wonder more and more people are turning homos (i'm NOT encouraging it ok?!). everything is abt sex... wait till u guys get STD i'll be the FIRST to laugh at u....

one of my buddies asked me "hey how to chase this girl i like huh?" i replied "wat does she like?"
"er i dunno... er... oh think she likes chocolate.." he said
"YOU DUNNO ANYTHING ABT HER N U WANNA CHASE AFTER HER?!" i exclaimed
"Hahaha.... er... cos i think she very pretty and seems like a sweet person."

like dat oso can chase ah? wah lao... so now a days guys so shallow wan ah... know nothing or dat little bit of 'thing' oso got guts to chase after her... why dun u guys take all those funny looking thing in your head called brain n flush it down the toilet bowl, since u're not using it anyways... ok this is besides the point...

OK... let's not tok abt the shallow idiots out there... y do people break up so quickly n so often now a days... cos people just dunno wat they want.... they want A, they want B, then they see C coming along n they want that too.... HELLO! can u make up ur FUNKING mind 1st! everything's abt sex sex sex... not boring ah... I HOPE ALL U causal DUMMIES OUT THERE GET incurable STDs even with protection!!!!

if u can't fucking make up ur pea sized brain then pls dun go hurting others as if ur mother owns the whole entire globe, even if u people think u're the king or queen of mother earth.... my only pray for u people is i hope u burn in hell.

thank you.