Met up some frens yeaterday... was given a nice good tok on my so called well planned future.... it seemed like i had it all planned out already yet they still managed to fill all my oblivious loopholes with qns i've yet to think abt... which leads me to an unavoidable qn "r u (ur character) ready to take on the challenge" n instantly i knew i wasn't. That really shook me up inside... cos meaning to say all this time i was just psyching myself up to a level of pretence of comfort, confidence n readiness. when i fell right back down to reality i wasn't prepared for wat was needed to be done. Till now the bleakness of my future left me in a state of shock, its as if a magician has just turned a piece of paper into confetti by a blow into his fist. And along with it it took my heart. *sigh*
nontheless, this hasn't stop me from moving on. my target is still there waiting for me to achieve. "nothing's stopping u now, except urself!" my fren commented. "its a matter of how badly u want it". And i know i do want it. "there's a boulder in front of u. R u going to wait for some1 to coming along ur path n push together with u (if no1 comes wait till ur hair turns grey) or start trying alittle by little to move it? dun wait for any1 to help u cos no1 will go the same path as u. u have to do it on ur own." i'll nv 4get this phrase for as long as i live n so as the person who told me.
And only now will ACTIONS speak a thousand words.
He replied, “Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a MUSTARD SEED, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.” - matthew 17:20
"I wanna tell you something, at a certain point in your life, probably when too much of it has gone by. You will open your eyes, and see yourself for who you are. Especially for everything that made you so different from all the awful normals. And you will say to yourself but I am this person, and in that statement, there will be a kind of love. " - Phoebe In Wonderland
February 12, 2005
identity crisis....
how should i put this? i can't believe i'm still trying to find who i really m, trying to build a certain style, or wat some mite call originality. this i learnt from AI when simon cowell said "everyone's got originality but i can't see dat in u... u're just like a copying machine".
this statement stuck in my thick head for as long as i know, n i've been trying to find myself ever since. i'm in a mess now, my mind's a blur. everything everyone says is starting to mess with my mind.
i desperately need to go for some motivational talk.... i'm really too sick n tired of this person. but too exhausted to wanna do anything.
help.
this statement stuck in my thick head for as long as i know, n i've been trying to find myself ever since. i'm in a mess now, my mind's a blur. everything everyone says is starting to mess with my mind.
i desperately need to go for some motivational talk.... i'm really too sick n tired of this person. but too exhausted to wanna do anything.
help.
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