ok? r u ready? is ur torch on? ok hand on reg n mask other hand on belt... now take a big step... *splash* *signal OK sign with 1 hand* heart thumbing non stop.... pitch dark waters.... only pathetic beams from then little torches from the scarcely scarttered divers... water's cloudy visibility is only an outstretched arm length... even with light, not much better....
my minds starts to play with me... putting all sorts of weird imagination into my head.... Qn starts to pop into my mind... r there sharks? crops? human preying fishes? and b4 i get frozen in my self induced fear... the DM sayz "ready? ok..." *signal decend* and i deflate my BC and down u float into a world of the unknown.... my heart starts to beat irregularly faster and faster by the passing minute.. my breathing began with inhales n exhales then after 5 mins into the dive... only inhales and no exhales.... so with all the extra air trap in my lungs i can only (VERY QUICKLY) float up/surfaced... leaving my poor buddy searching high n low frantically for me... me, trying to get my composure back.... putting my mask back on and go down again... but then!
at this moment... the same fear that almost stopped me from decending just now is here again... worse.... i'm all alone now..... no beams of torch lites ard me... only a beam of lite.... my lite.... then when i finally decide to abort the dive (means not decending again) i had to attract the attention of the boatman... trying to calm myself at the same time... haiz... i used my whistle and shone the torch on me... after 5mins or so, i heard a laughter... who's? the boatman... he was laughing at my silliness... which at this point, a major headache has already set in (due to the rapid ascend... well this is a good lesson to those future divers.... dun panic... even if panic breath sloooowlllllyyyyyy........... so u dun get a headache later on)
finally, too exhausted to think/imagine/worry... i jus laied on my back and waited for the boat to come get me... when it did i was relieved , overjoyed and at peace... but also in pain as well....